Merging

February 27th, 2010

For some reason, at some point in all my years I learned to micro-manage … everything in my life seems to be compartmentalized.  I keep every aspect of my life in individual boxes, with file cards on some internal shelf. The “room” is of course nice & tidy … everything over organized … childhood memories in one area, my life as a wife in another, mommy-hood in yet another area … I guess one could say that my life is well organized but really it’s exhausting having to always keep up with the micro-managing. Hopefully you realize that I’m speaking symbolical  & know that I don’t think there are rooms, shelves & boxes in my head to store all this. Any way … all that to say that I’ve been trying to break out of the habit of micro-managing my life. I’ve been working on 2 different CD’s over the past few months. One is a true to life CD filled with my personal memories & life experiences. The other is a contemporary Christian CC with praise, worship & lyrics that speak of the things God does for us. Well, God is a large part in every aspect of my life … so why should I keep the 2 CD’s separate? I will keep the title, “On A Personal Note” for the CD but it will have contemporary Christian songs as well as some true to life memories & such. I am really excited about this!!! Best decision I’ve made in a while, actually!!!

Switched

February 4th, 2010

Ok, the blog has successfully been switched over. Those of you who are on the Networked Blog site may be getting a flood of posts in the next few minutes. If it does happen, sorry … it’s just from updating the server & shouldn’t happen again.

Too many irons in the fire

January 3rd, 2010

I am a wife, mom, home school teacher, songwriter & recording artist … those are my priorities. I tend to throw other things in to the mix at times and that usually does nothing but distract & frustrate me. Take the current web site issues … I have been building sites for years with usually, little or no problems. This time however, I have been frustrated with graphics, codes, line up’s and a new program. This has not only frustrated me beyond all get-out … but also has delayed some other more important issues. As part of some changes I’m making in my life, I am handing my web issues over to some one else. I’ll just stick to what I know best .. singing & song writing!

The CD looks to be delayed but I am working my hardest to make up for lost time. I’m guessing by the end of February now or early March. Hopefully I’ll have some new songs posted in the next few weeks though … as well as at least one Fan exclusive!

I’ll be back with more updates some time tomorrow!

By the way … Happy New year!!!

Songs on the CD

December 17th, 2009

Here we are, less than 2 months from launching the CD. I’m plugging away in the studio & at the “Creation Station” (what I call the desk area that I write at) LOL

Grandma’s Bag Of Tricks
Move On
Ink
This Side Of Heaven
Those are some of the songs on the upcoming CD. Man, I can’t wait for it to be released!!!
There are other songs ready & some almost finished … and yet others, haven’t even been started. Don’t worry. It’ll get done!
***Fan Exclusive Update*** In 10 days I will be releasing a recording .. only available to those who have signed up to be fans. It will be a free download & the song will either be from the “On A Personal Note” CD or the Worship CD to be released shortly after the other one. The song will only be available for download for a short period of time so join as fans as soon as possible.

Stirring up the gifts …

December 11th, 2009

Wow … the life of a songwriter can sure get crazy. It’s so hard for me to put my pen down some times. It seems that lately, every where I look I find inspiration for one song or another. I have had sessions where the wave of creativity seems never ending … but this time it’s amazing, even to me. I guess that’s what happens when you stir up the gifts God has given you. Speaking of gifts … check out what I won by going to HOPE INK . The artist held a contest so I entered my name & commented on which print was my favorite. What a blessing it was to find out I won!!! The print is hanging right over my desk now, to remind me to use & be thankful for the gifts God gave me.

Check out this ARTICLE about me. I think it gives you a deeper look as to who I am and what as well as who inspires me. The author, Jan Hoadley has some other great articles too … some of which may be an interest to you.

Magical

December 2nd, 2009

So the blog every day for a month challenge is over … phewwww, I made it (thanks to my dear friend Rhenda). I’m still going to try to blog every day .. though I don’t know that I always have that much (if anything) to say LOL

As for today … music is magical! Ever notice how it can lift you right out of a funk? Or validate you in some way! Or show you that your life isn’t as bad as you think! It speaks so many different languages … but my favorite is, was & always will be which ever speaks to my heart at the time. I think for some people, it can also feed anger. It has the ability to speak to every aspect of your life.

Memories

December 1st, 2009

It’s been a long but productive day!

Something I realized today .. well, I knew it … but I guess a reminder came my way. Writing songs, in my case any way is a way of preserving memories, depending on what the song is about.
Even if I have songs that never make it on to one of my CD’s … they are memories for me & to pass on to my children. I wll have them to remember things & they will have them to remember me by.
I got a new toy today … a new music software program … has drum, guitar & keyboard looks. I also remembered that my son’s keyboard USB cord was in a drawer … so now we can record directly from the keyboard to the computer. YAYYYY!!!
I had a really kool dream last night … well actually I had a few but one in particular … I can’t wait to see how it plays out in a song!!!

Angry Levine or Alanis More-upset

November 30th, 2009

Well it appears like the “On A Personal Note” CD will have a lot of “in your face” type songs. It’s not that I’m angry though … it’s just that some of the songs are about sensitive subjects. They deal with people who make wrong assumptions & judgments … so the lyrics come off as angry or in your face when really, they’re just to make people think. I’d made a comment to a few people about coming off like Angry Levine or Alanis More-upset … LOL (no, that is not a slam against either one of them … I actually really like both singers).

I have found myself diving in to music written by realists lately. I’m enjoying it & think I’m sold on that type of art. Is it a “phase” ? I hope not .. I hope to find more artists like that to add to my favorites. Any suggestions? It doesn’t matter what genre … I like styles you’ve probably never even heard of LOL (or at least wouldn’t listen to).
Imagine a world with no music … no, don’t. That is a sad thought!!!

Hi self, meet self

November 29th, 2009

I am so blessed and thankful for this creative wave that hasn’t crashed. Every once in a while it will appear to be ending but the wind picks up & carries me farther. Thank you, Lord for strong winds and water that flows!

As I write for the, “On A Personal Note” CD, I’m learning more and more about myself. Some of the things, I’ve already known and am enjoying the gentle reminders … but other things I had no clue. To say it’s odd to be introduced to myself is an understatement! I am thrilled though … in the fact that I really do like who am I & who I am becoming!
I find that I don’t have time to do all the things needed in order to get everything in place for the CD’s to be released in February. I am having to hire out a lot of jobs … which I really can’t afford .. but am trusting God fully to provide the needs.

Dream on …

November 27th, 2009

Some one recently asked me what stops me from reaching my dreams … quite honestly, nothing but time at this point in life. I am moving toward my dreams daily whether or not I have “reached” them yet. There was a time I would have answered differently though. I’m sure I could/would/probably did give all kinds of excuses:

  • money
  • my health
  • my weight
  • being a parent
  • blah blah blah blah

I have pondered this quite often and in great depth .. no matter what excuse given, it all boiled down to me. ME .. huh, what a concept! Me … being the one getting in the way of my dreams. Allow me to show you how …

- Money … instead of investing it in myself, my talents & the gifts that God gave me, it went in to companies/products to sell.
- Money (2) … “but we can’t afford it …” BULL! There are plenty things to do, to raise money to put in to your dreams. Give up that special once a week/month snack you buy for yourself … recycle cans/bottles/metals etc for extra cash … use your talent to make extra money in smaller ways (being a song writer, I can write articles/books/poetry & songs for people) …
- Health … I neglected my health for years, blinded by the lie that a mother always has to put her family first. By the time every one was taken care of, I didn’t have the energy to take care of me. Things change!
- Weight … in the theme of health, yes … but a bit different for me. As the weight packed on, my thoughts would move in to, “wow, you’re too heavy for the industry now.” Simon Cowell has made sure we know his opinion of heavy set women in the industry. I can’t blame him though … I blame myself for being convinced. I’m working on losing weight & getting healthy … but even so, I don’t believe the lies any more.
- Being a parent … I was told by quite a few people that I couldn’t have my dreams & raise children. I sure believed that … for many years. Now that I really think about it though .. why not??? There are TONS of parents in the industry … some take their children (and spouses) with them every where they go. Some keep their children at home so as to not be out in public eye very often. What ever way they have chosen to do it, they are doing it … and it’s working for them. I don’t believe that lie any more either.
No matter what gets in my way, it’s up to me to jump the hurdle & ignore the lies.
So … what’s stopping you from reaching your dreams?